Society has been programmed to prefer a larger round booty over a semi-curved behind.. Well I have been blessed with a somewhat smaller version of the semi-curved behind... needless to say.. squats should be my best friend.
I tried squatting in the mornings but to be honest, I would do 8 or 9 and call it a day. It just was not my thing. I have researched on Rife Frequencies in which different frequencies affects your physical body in different ways. Of course I looked for a frequency that would help my little problem...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yFWLdltoOLY
As I type this out, I am listening to this video. I have set my intention and am looking forward to seeing the results.
<3
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Friday, September 12, 2014
Salvia: To do or not to do...?
DMT is an illegal substance in the US (even though we all have this chemical IN OUR BRAINS and is secreted during REM state...anyway...) so I decided that I was going to try Salvia, the '5-minute-version' of DMT or Ayahuasca.
1st Time: (approx. 6 months ago)
I was sitting up in bed. All of a sudden I felt a tingling all throughout my body. I could not help but smile. It felt like all the hair on my body was on end. I look up and start laughing, unable to put together meaningful words to combine a sentence with any structure. I then turn my head around, looking for someone that was pulling my hair. It felt like a large vacuum cleaner was sucking me up from above. I talked my way out of this, thinking back I wish I had just let it take me to never-never-land, and slowly and smoothly came back to reality.
2nd Time: (2 weeks after my 1st time)
I learned after my first experience that closing your eyes during a Salvia trip greatly increases the effects. Apparently keeping your eyes open stimulates a spinning or pages of a book state where you are stuck and repeatedly travelling in between this dimension and others. (I watched friends do this and they either ran around in circles or rolled around on the floor) I took a deep breath, held it in until I felt vibrations and let out a giant puff of smoke.
The adventure begins.
I find myself in total darkness, but there is no fear. I do not 'see' my guide (still have not officially met) but I felt her presence and her arm around my shoulder. She and I floated towards a giant wagon wheel (I later read into the medicine wheel) and it started spinning slow.. but sped up just a little bit at each turn until it was spinning fairly quickly. As it increased in speed, I kept hearing "Sorcerer... sorcerer..." by a male voice.
I slowly black out and find myself back in bed.
3rd Time: TBD
1st Time: (approx. 6 months ago)
I was sitting up in bed. All of a sudden I felt a tingling all throughout my body. I could not help but smile. It felt like all the hair on my body was on end. I look up and start laughing, unable to put together meaningful words to combine a sentence with any structure. I then turn my head around, looking for someone that was pulling my hair. It felt like a large vacuum cleaner was sucking me up from above. I talked my way out of this, thinking back I wish I had just let it take me to never-never-land, and slowly and smoothly came back to reality.
2nd Time: (2 weeks after my 1st time)
I learned after my first experience that closing your eyes during a Salvia trip greatly increases the effects. Apparently keeping your eyes open stimulates a spinning or pages of a book state where you are stuck and repeatedly travelling in between this dimension and others. (I watched friends do this and they either ran around in circles or rolled around on the floor) I took a deep breath, held it in until I felt vibrations and let out a giant puff of smoke.
The adventure begins.
I find myself in total darkness, but there is no fear. I do not 'see' my guide (still have not officially met) but I felt her presence and her arm around my shoulder. She and I floated towards a giant wagon wheel (I later read into the medicine wheel) and it started spinning slow.. but sped up just a little bit at each turn until it was spinning fairly quickly. As it increased in speed, I kept hearing "Sorcerer... sorcerer..." by a male voice.
I slowly black out and find myself back in bed.
3rd Time: TBD
Friday, January 10, 2014
Dreamless sleep
I used to have the most lucid controlled dreams until about several years ago and all this time, I thought to myself what a blessing that was. I take 'sleep aids' at night and this has resulted in minimizing the REM stage of my sleep... that's when we venture to our other consciousness or 'dreams'.
I will try a test. I will control my sleep aids so it is ingested only before 6pm as to lessen its control over my body when I am in sleep mode. This will encourage a huge burst of lucid dreams as an initial 'response' and I cannot wait to see the things that I will be seeing in this state of mind.
Scared? Not at all. I used to have the largest fear of the dark and recently, I have been more comfortable in the dark than ever. This is I came from, I AM the dark matter so why be afraid?
I will try a test. I will control my sleep aids so it is ingested only before 6pm as to lessen its control over my body when I am in sleep mode. This will encourage a huge burst of lucid dreams as an initial 'response' and I cannot wait to see the things that I will be seeing in this state of mind.
Scared? Not at all. I used to have the largest fear of the dark and recently, I have been more comfortable in the dark than ever. This is I came from, I AM the dark matter so why be afraid?
Wednesday, January 8, 2014
I AM THAT, I AM
When the burning bush instructed Moses to march to a prosperous city and free the people, Moses asked "Who shall I say sent me?" and until a few hours ago, I always assumed the response from God was "I am that I am". What's the difference?
,
The comma.
What does that do to this statement? Instead of an almighty being telling us that he is who he is, it sounds more like he is trying to convince Moses that he IS the burning bush.
Try and say it.
Say "I AM that, I AM!" as if trying to convince someone that you are a burning bush.
What does this mean?
God is everything.
He is the plant.
He is the rock.
He is the water.
He is you.
You are Him.
Now that you are waking up and realizing that you are the Creator, imagine the possibilities!
,
The comma.
What does that do to this statement? Instead of an almighty being telling us that he is who he is, it sounds more like he is trying to convince Moses that he IS the burning bush.
Try and say it.
Say "I AM that, I AM!" as if trying to convince someone that you are a burning bush.
What does this mean?
God is everything.
He is the plant.
He is the rock.
He is the water.
He is you.
You are Him.
Now that you are waking up and realizing that you are the Creator, imagine the possibilities!
Tuesday, January 7, 2014
It's a girl!
My co-worker from downstairs, she works in a different department and I interact with her maybe once a week or so, just came in to my department and said that she had a very vivid dream last night about me and Ryan with our baby girl, she was already about 1 year old and had curly brunette hair.
As soon as we win the lottery, having our baby girl is the next thing on our list!
Happy days everyone :)
I just won the lottery!
Wednesday, 1/8/14 - California Powerball Jackpot of $70 Million
The winning numbers are written in my phone's notepad, right on the main screen.
As soon as I make the call to the California Lottery Commission, I will call my mom and let her know. I will need my parents advice and guidance on how to invest the money wisely so I can spend the rest of my life helping young adults going through troubled times. I can help them find their inner peace just like I am finding my own inner peace. I will need to set aside time to cross-train someone at work as I do not want to leave them blind. You should never burn your bridges right?
I will live in a large property in Byron, somewhere near the water and with land for the dogs that I will be fostering until they have found their own homes. The house will not be very big as keeping it clean will be harder to do. It will be a two-story brick house with a beautiful fireplace right in the middle. We will spend our evenings curled up by the fire watching the flames and listening to the soft sounds of the night. We will spend our days putting together groups and organizations to help others. It will be rewarding to see the success of others with our guidance.
We will have family vacations and quality time will be spent together. Everyone will be happy and content. Everyone will be healthy. Everyone will be free of negative thoughts.
I can't wait until Wednesday night.
UPDATE: Thursday, 1/9/14
I won the lottery like I said! The amount of winnings does not matter, it was the fact that I made it happen that is even greater of a reward!
Thanks everyone for your positive thoughts.
The winning numbers are written in my phone's notepad, right on the main screen.
As soon as I make the call to the California Lottery Commission, I will call my mom and let her know. I will need my parents advice and guidance on how to invest the money wisely so I can spend the rest of my life helping young adults going through troubled times. I can help them find their inner peace just like I am finding my own inner peace. I will need to set aside time to cross-train someone at work as I do not want to leave them blind. You should never burn your bridges right?
I will live in a large property in Byron, somewhere near the water and with land for the dogs that I will be fostering until they have found their own homes. The house will not be very big as keeping it clean will be harder to do. It will be a two-story brick house with a beautiful fireplace right in the middle. We will spend our evenings curled up by the fire watching the flames and listening to the soft sounds of the night. We will spend our days putting together groups and organizations to help others. It will be rewarding to see the success of others with our guidance.
We will have family vacations and quality time will be spent together. Everyone will be happy and content. Everyone will be healthy. Everyone will be free of negative thoughts.
I can't wait until Wednesday night.
UPDATE: Thursday, 1/9/14
I won the lottery like I said! The amount of winnings does not matter, it was the fact that I made it happen that is even greater of a reward!
Thanks everyone for your positive thoughts.
I was on time to work.
I live 15 minutes away from work. I am supposed to be clocked in by 7am or that is considered 'tardy'.
From now on, I will be on time everyday. I will get up earlier. I will set aside time to meditate and stretch my body. I will eat a healthy breakfast and make sure my children have what they need to start their day. I will travel safe and start my work day invigorated and ready to be productive.
Back to my late story...
I have only recently started meditating in the mornings this week and my timing is still a bit off. I started at 5 am and finished at 6:15. Oops. I usually start getting ready for work by 5:45! Hair... makeup.. outfit.. breakfast... my my my..
I stood up, took 3 long slow deep breaths and told myself I will get myself ready as I normally do and clock in by 6:59 am. I didn't know how I was going to do that but I knew I was going to get it done.
Without rushing more than usual, I cleaned up, picked out my outfit, tied my hair up in a ponytail and spent the usual 10 minutes or so applying makeup. I then checked on my 7 yr old, which my most amazing boyfriend had already prepared for; snack, uniform and breakfast was ready for him. I grabbed our snack bag and prepared a healthy breakfast comprised of yogurt, fresh fruits, oatmeal and water with low fluoride. We step out in the fresh air and start our drive to work.
Halfway through our commute I realize we have only 10 minutes until we are officially tardy. With the usual red lights along the way, I started to think that we would not make it... then I STOPPED myself from thinking this negative thought. I literally yelled at myself in my head and said "Stop thinking negative thoughts Bianca!". I then closed my eyes (my boyfriend was driving obviously) and started imagining a completely empty road. I pictured Balfour Road, completely empty of cars except for us. I then picture green lights. I was seeing myself bathing in a ball of green energy light that I myself was emitting from within. I then saw myself on a never-ending see of green grass. After a few minutes of this visualization, I started thinking about the time clock. I saw myself swipe my card right at 6:59 am. I reverted back to thinking of bathing in green lights and green energy. With my eyes closed, I can feel that we had not stopped at all. We did not stop once the entire Balfour Rd. A slight pause at the end to make a right turn then drove right up to the gravel parking lot.
We briskly walked to the employee entrance and clocked in.
6:59 am.
Today is going to be a wonderful day!
From now on, I will be on time everyday. I will get up earlier. I will set aside time to meditate and stretch my body. I will eat a healthy breakfast and make sure my children have what they need to start their day. I will travel safe and start my work day invigorated and ready to be productive.
Back to my late story...
I have only recently started meditating in the mornings this week and my timing is still a bit off. I started at 5 am and finished at 6:15. Oops. I usually start getting ready for work by 5:45! Hair... makeup.. outfit.. breakfast... my my my..
I stood up, took 3 long slow deep breaths and told myself I will get myself ready as I normally do and clock in by 6:59 am. I didn't know how I was going to do that but I knew I was going to get it done.
Without rushing more than usual, I cleaned up, picked out my outfit, tied my hair up in a ponytail and spent the usual 10 minutes or so applying makeup. I then checked on my 7 yr old, which my most amazing boyfriend had already prepared for; snack, uniform and breakfast was ready for him. I grabbed our snack bag and prepared a healthy breakfast comprised of yogurt, fresh fruits, oatmeal and water with low fluoride. We step out in the fresh air and start our drive to work.
Halfway through our commute I realize we have only 10 minutes until we are officially tardy. With the usual red lights along the way, I started to think that we would not make it... then I STOPPED myself from thinking this negative thought. I literally yelled at myself in my head and said "Stop thinking negative thoughts Bianca!". I then closed my eyes (my boyfriend was driving obviously) and started imagining a completely empty road. I pictured Balfour Road, completely empty of cars except for us. I then picture green lights. I was seeing myself bathing in a ball of green energy light that I myself was emitting from within. I then saw myself on a never-ending see of green grass. After a few minutes of this visualization, I started thinking about the time clock. I saw myself swipe my card right at 6:59 am. I reverted back to thinking of bathing in green lights and green energy. With my eyes closed, I can feel that we had not stopped at all. We did not stop once the entire Balfour Rd. A slight pause at the end to make a right turn then drove right up to the gravel parking lot.
We briskly walked to the employee entrance and clocked in.
6:59 am.
Today is going to be a wonderful day!
I am so happy and grateful now that money comes to me in increasing quantities through multiple sources on a continuous basis.
Can repeating a mantra, telling your brain that IS instead of just a thought?
I am so happy and grateful now that money comes to me in increasing quantities through multiple sources on a continuous basis.
I'm listening to an audio of a strong male voice and I hear a faint second voice in the background repeating this over and over and over and over.... for 1 hour.
Last night I dreamt... no, it was not a dream, I saw myself in the near future winning the lottery. I picked out my numbers and watched them through the number-picking machine.
I knew each number. I felt each number.
I am so happy and grateful now that money comes to me in increasing quantities through multiple sources on a continuous basis.
I am so happy and grateful now that money comes to me in increasing quantities through multiple sources on a continuous basis.
I'm listening to an audio of a strong male voice and I hear a faint second voice in the background repeating this over and over and over and over.... for 1 hour.
Last night I dreamt... no, it was not a dream, I saw myself in the near future winning the lottery. I picked out my numbers and watched them through the number-picking machine.
I knew each number. I felt each number.
I am so happy and grateful now that money comes to me in increasing quantities through multiple sources on a continuous basis.
Monday, January 6, 2014
Law of Attraction?!?
Yes... I've heard OF it but... what IS it really?
Are the possibilities REALLY endless?
Friday, 1/3/14:
I was sitting at my desk contemplating whether to contact my co-worker/friend, Jake, and had thought at first that I should call him.. remembered he has no desk phone. Email? What I was going to ask was personal in nature and using company resources is never a good idea to do that so I decided that I should just get up off my chair and walk over to his department. As I started thinking about getting up because I had to talk to him, he walks RIGHT IN to my office and walks right up to my desk.. I stand up, put my arms up in the air as if to say WOAH!... 'Jake, what are you doing here?' and he says 'I dunno, just got the urge to come in and say hi.' Did I attract him to come to me?
Saturday, 1/4/14:
It was my turn to prepare dinner and I was being completely lazy. I think long and hard about where I want to get food... Chili's? McDonalds? In N Out? I decided that chicken and rice was what I was craving so I started to look up the Ohana BBQ online menu. They were 5 minutes away and always have great food. As I think about what I want to get everyone, I decided to be even more lazier and make my 17 year old son pick it up for us. I call him into my room and say "Justin, I'm ordering food at Ohana, please pick it up for us.". He stares at me for a few seconds then says "Mom, we (him and his girlfriend) JUST got up and got the craving to get food at Ohana." They literally, just stood up and was headed out of his room when I called him into my room. Did I push the desire for that food into my son's thoughts?
I started meditating to 'activate my pineal gland' which is the 6th chakra related to intuition on 1/1/14.
If my first few sessions were able to do these things... what else can I do?
What is reality?
In the beginning, there was nothing... at least that's what I was told.
Where do I begin.... or better yet, where did I come from?
Who am I?
My entire life I was told one thing yet all the historical facts and scientific proof points elsewhere. What I have personally uncovered is that the 'truth' does not point up to the heavens rather past the heavens into the deep darkness of outer space.
Crazy.
That's what I would have told you several months ago. I would tell you to take a vacation, stop smoking weed and get back to reality.
What is reality?
When I in my deepest REM dream state, my dream IS my reality. What I see and feel and touch IS my reality at that time. It is so real that when I wake up, it takes a few seconds to realize that I am now in my waking reality.
The Brain.
Scientists claim that we use approximately 25% of our brain. There is one little teeny tiny gland is called the 'pineal gland' and is physically right smack in the middle of your brain, right in between your left and right hemispheres and directly behind your 'physical' eyes. I say 'physical' because we actually have 3 eyes, crazy right? This gland, also called 'the seat of the soul' has been scientifically linked to be the connection between our physical and the metaphysical world. What does that mean?
Pineal Gland.
This little pinecone shaped gland, no larger than a grain of rice, has the very important function of secreting either Seratonin or Melatonin; Seratonin is secreted when light is present and Melatonin when in complete darkness. What this means is that when you are awake and light comes through your eyes into the region of the pineal gland, it secretes Seratonin or the 'happy' feeling. In darkness, the gland secretes Melatonin which is converted into a drug called DMT. This 'shaman' drug has been linked to enlightenment, increased perception, bliss, etc. There's plenty more information about this gland online so feel free to perform your own research and discoveries.
Blah, blah, blah... what is my point?
At night, your pineal gland secretes Melatonin and you are off to dream-land that you (can) fully control through practice of lucid dreaming. During the day, your pineal gland secretes Seratonin and you are here in 'reality' that you go along with as best as you can. If we can learn by practice to control our dream state, can we also practice and learn to control reality?
This is where it REALLY begins. I will document my experiences as I journey deep in my mind and explore the unknown that is within each and every one of us. We seek elsewhere for answers yet we fail to seek within ourselves first.
Welcome to my awakening.
Where do I begin.... or better yet, where did I come from?
Who am I?
My entire life I was told one thing yet all the historical facts and scientific proof points elsewhere. What I have personally uncovered is that the 'truth' does not point up to the heavens rather past the heavens into the deep darkness of outer space.
Crazy.
That's what I would have told you several months ago. I would tell you to take a vacation, stop smoking weed and get back to reality.
What is reality?
When I in my deepest REM dream state, my dream IS my reality. What I see and feel and touch IS my reality at that time. It is so real that when I wake up, it takes a few seconds to realize that I am now in my waking reality.
The Brain.
Scientists claim that we use approximately 25% of our brain. There is one little teeny tiny gland is called the 'pineal gland' and is physically right smack in the middle of your brain, right in between your left and right hemispheres and directly behind your 'physical' eyes. I say 'physical' because we actually have 3 eyes, crazy right? This gland, also called 'the seat of the soul' has been scientifically linked to be the connection between our physical and the metaphysical world. What does that mean?
Pineal Gland.
This little pinecone shaped gland, no larger than a grain of rice, has the very important function of secreting either Seratonin or Melatonin; Seratonin is secreted when light is present and Melatonin when in complete darkness. What this means is that when you are awake and light comes through your eyes into the region of the pineal gland, it secretes Seratonin or the 'happy' feeling. In darkness, the gland secretes Melatonin which is converted into a drug called DMT. This 'shaman' drug has been linked to enlightenment, increased perception, bliss, etc. There's plenty more information about this gland online so feel free to perform your own research and discoveries.
Blah, blah, blah... what is my point?
At night, your pineal gland secretes Melatonin and you are off to dream-land that you (can) fully control through practice of lucid dreaming. During the day, your pineal gland secretes Seratonin and you are here in 'reality' that you go along with as best as you can. If we can learn by practice to control our dream state, can we also practice and learn to control reality?
This is where it REALLY begins. I will document my experiences as I journey deep in my mind and explore the unknown that is within each and every one of us. We seek elsewhere for answers yet we fail to seek within ourselves first.
Welcome to my awakening.
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