Society has been programmed to prefer a larger round booty over a semi-curved behind.. Well I have been blessed with a somewhat smaller version of the semi-curved behind... needless to say.. squats should be my best friend.
I tried squatting in the mornings but to be honest, I would do 8 or 9 and call it a day. It just was not my thing. I have researched on Rife Frequencies in which different frequencies affects your physical body in different ways. Of course I looked for a frequency that would help my little problem...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yFWLdltoOLY
As I type this out, I am listening to this video. I have set my intention and am looking forward to seeing the results.
<3
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Friday, September 12, 2014
Salvia: To do or not to do...?
DMT is an illegal substance in the US (even though we all have this chemical IN OUR BRAINS and is secreted during REM state...anyway...) so I decided that I was going to try Salvia, the '5-minute-version' of DMT or Ayahuasca.
1st Time: (approx. 6 months ago)
I was sitting up in bed. All of a sudden I felt a tingling all throughout my body. I could not help but smile. It felt like all the hair on my body was on end. I look up and start laughing, unable to put together meaningful words to combine a sentence with any structure. I then turn my head around, looking for someone that was pulling my hair. It felt like a large vacuum cleaner was sucking me up from above. I talked my way out of this, thinking back I wish I had just let it take me to never-never-land, and slowly and smoothly came back to reality.
2nd Time: (2 weeks after my 1st time)
I learned after my first experience that closing your eyes during a Salvia trip greatly increases the effects. Apparently keeping your eyes open stimulates a spinning or pages of a book state where you are stuck and repeatedly travelling in between this dimension and others. (I watched friends do this and they either ran around in circles or rolled around on the floor) I took a deep breath, held it in until I felt vibrations and let out a giant puff of smoke.
The adventure begins.
I find myself in total darkness, but there is no fear. I do not 'see' my guide (still have not officially met) but I felt her presence and her arm around my shoulder. She and I floated towards a giant wagon wheel (I later read into the medicine wheel) and it started spinning slow.. but sped up just a little bit at each turn until it was spinning fairly quickly. As it increased in speed, I kept hearing "Sorcerer... sorcerer..." by a male voice.
I slowly black out and find myself back in bed.
3rd Time: TBD
1st Time: (approx. 6 months ago)
I was sitting up in bed. All of a sudden I felt a tingling all throughout my body. I could not help but smile. It felt like all the hair on my body was on end. I look up and start laughing, unable to put together meaningful words to combine a sentence with any structure. I then turn my head around, looking for someone that was pulling my hair. It felt like a large vacuum cleaner was sucking me up from above. I talked my way out of this, thinking back I wish I had just let it take me to never-never-land, and slowly and smoothly came back to reality.
2nd Time: (2 weeks after my 1st time)
I learned after my first experience that closing your eyes during a Salvia trip greatly increases the effects. Apparently keeping your eyes open stimulates a spinning or pages of a book state where you are stuck and repeatedly travelling in between this dimension and others. (I watched friends do this and they either ran around in circles or rolled around on the floor) I took a deep breath, held it in until I felt vibrations and let out a giant puff of smoke.
The adventure begins.
I find myself in total darkness, but there is no fear. I do not 'see' my guide (still have not officially met) but I felt her presence and her arm around my shoulder. She and I floated towards a giant wagon wheel (I later read into the medicine wheel) and it started spinning slow.. but sped up just a little bit at each turn until it was spinning fairly quickly. As it increased in speed, I kept hearing "Sorcerer... sorcerer..." by a male voice.
I slowly black out and find myself back in bed.
3rd Time: TBD
Friday, January 10, 2014
Dreamless sleep
I used to have the most lucid controlled dreams until about several years ago and all this time, I thought to myself what a blessing that was. I take 'sleep aids' at night and this has resulted in minimizing the REM stage of my sleep... that's when we venture to our other consciousness or 'dreams'.
I will try a test. I will control my sleep aids so it is ingested only before 6pm as to lessen its control over my body when I am in sleep mode. This will encourage a huge burst of lucid dreams as an initial 'response' and I cannot wait to see the things that I will be seeing in this state of mind.
Scared? Not at all. I used to have the largest fear of the dark and recently, I have been more comfortable in the dark than ever. This is I came from, I AM the dark matter so why be afraid?
I will try a test. I will control my sleep aids so it is ingested only before 6pm as to lessen its control over my body when I am in sleep mode. This will encourage a huge burst of lucid dreams as an initial 'response' and I cannot wait to see the things that I will be seeing in this state of mind.
Scared? Not at all. I used to have the largest fear of the dark and recently, I have been more comfortable in the dark than ever. This is I came from, I AM the dark matter so why be afraid?
Wednesday, January 8, 2014
I AM THAT, I AM
When the burning bush instructed Moses to march to a prosperous city and free the people, Moses asked "Who shall I say sent me?" and until a few hours ago, I always assumed the response from God was "I am that I am". What's the difference?
,
The comma.
What does that do to this statement? Instead of an almighty being telling us that he is who he is, it sounds more like he is trying to convince Moses that he IS the burning bush.
Try and say it.
Say "I AM that, I AM!" as if trying to convince someone that you are a burning bush.
What does this mean?
God is everything.
He is the plant.
He is the rock.
He is the water.
He is you.
You are Him.
Now that you are waking up and realizing that you are the Creator, imagine the possibilities!
,
The comma.
What does that do to this statement? Instead of an almighty being telling us that he is who he is, it sounds more like he is trying to convince Moses that he IS the burning bush.
Try and say it.
Say "I AM that, I AM!" as if trying to convince someone that you are a burning bush.
What does this mean?
God is everything.
He is the plant.
He is the rock.
He is the water.
He is you.
You are Him.
Now that you are waking up and realizing that you are the Creator, imagine the possibilities!
Tuesday, January 7, 2014
It's a girl!
My co-worker from downstairs, she works in a different department and I interact with her maybe once a week or so, just came in to my department and said that she had a very vivid dream last night about me and Ryan with our baby girl, she was already about 1 year old and had curly brunette hair.
As soon as we win the lottery, having our baby girl is the next thing on our list!
Happy days everyone :)
I just won the lottery!
Wednesday, 1/8/14 - California Powerball Jackpot of $70 Million
The winning numbers are written in my phone's notepad, right on the main screen.
As soon as I make the call to the California Lottery Commission, I will call my mom and let her know. I will need my parents advice and guidance on how to invest the money wisely so I can spend the rest of my life helping young adults going through troubled times. I can help them find their inner peace just like I am finding my own inner peace. I will need to set aside time to cross-train someone at work as I do not want to leave them blind. You should never burn your bridges right?
I will live in a large property in Byron, somewhere near the water and with land for the dogs that I will be fostering until they have found their own homes. The house will not be very big as keeping it clean will be harder to do. It will be a two-story brick house with a beautiful fireplace right in the middle. We will spend our evenings curled up by the fire watching the flames and listening to the soft sounds of the night. We will spend our days putting together groups and organizations to help others. It will be rewarding to see the success of others with our guidance.
We will have family vacations and quality time will be spent together. Everyone will be happy and content. Everyone will be healthy. Everyone will be free of negative thoughts.
I can't wait until Wednesday night.
UPDATE: Thursday, 1/9/14
I won the lottery like I said! The amount of winnings does not matter, it was the fact that I made it happen that is even greater of a reward!
Thanks everyone for your positive thoughts.
The winning numbers are written in my phone's notepad, right on the main screen.
As soon as I make the call to the California Lottery Commission, I will call my mom and let her know. I will need my parents advice and guidance on how to invest the money wisely so I can spend the rest of my life helping young adults going through troubled times. I can help them find their inner peace just like I am finding my own inner peace. I will need to set aside time to cross-train someone at work as I do not want to leave them blind. You should never burn your bridges right?
I will live in a large property in Byron, somewhere near the water and with land for the dogs that I will be fostering until they have found their own homes. The house will not be very big as keeping it clean will be harder to do. It will be a two-story brick house with a beautiful fireplace right in the middle. We will spend our evenings curled up by the fire watching the flames and listening to the soft sounds of the night. We will spend our days putting together groups and organizations to help others. It will be rewarding to see the success of others with our guidance.
We will have family vacations and quality time will be spent together. Everyone will be happy and content. Everyone will be healthy. Everyone will be free of negative thoughts.
I can't wait until Wednesday night.
UPDATE: Thursday, 1/9/14
I won the lottery like I said! The amount of winnings does not matter, it was the fact that I made it happen that is even greater of a reward!
Thanks everyone for your positive thoughts.
I was on time to work.
I live 15 minutes away from work. I am supposed to be clocked in by 7am or that is considered 'tardy'.
From now on, I will be on time everyday. I will get up earlier. I will set aside time to meditate and stretch my body. I will eat a healthy breakfast and make sure my children have what they need to start their day. I will travel safe and start my work day invigorated and ready to be productive.
Back to my late story...
I have only recently started meditating in the mornings this week and my timing is still a bit off. I started at 5 am and finished at 6:15. Oops. I usually start getting ready for work by 5:45! Hair... makeup.. outfit.. breakfast... my my my..
I stood up, took 3 long slow deep breaths and told myself I will get myself ready as I normally do and clock in by 6:59 am. I didn't know how I was going to do that but I knew I was going to get it done.
Without rushing more than usual, I cleaned up, picked out my outfit, tied my hair up in a ponytail and spent the usual 10 minutes or so applying makeup. I then checked on my 7 yr old, which my most amazing boyfriend had already prepared for; snack, uniform and breakfast was ready for him. I grabbed our snack bag and prepared a healthy breakfast comprised of yogurt, fresh fruits, oatmeal and water with low fluoride. We step out in the fresh air and start our drive to work.
Halfway through our commute I realize we have only 10 minutes until we are officially tardy. With the usual red lights along the way, I started to think that we would not make it... then I STOPPED myself from thinking this negative thought. I literally yelled at myself in my head and said "Stop thinking negative thoughts Bianca!". I then closed my eyes (my boyfriend was driving obviously) and started imagining a completely empty road. I pictured Balfour Road, completely empty of cars except for us. I then picture green lights. I was seeing myself bathing in a ball of green energy light that I myself was emitting from within. I then saw myself on a never-ending see of green grass. After a few minutes of this visualization, I started thinking about the time clock. I saw myself swipe my card right at 6:59 am. I reverted back to thinking of bathing in green lights and green energy. With my eyes closed, I can feel that we had not stopped at all. We did not stop once the entire Balfour Rd. A slight pause at the end to make a right turn then drove right up to the gravel parking lot.
We briskly walked to the employee entrance and clocked in.
6:59 am.
Today is going to be a wonderful day!
From now on, I will be on time everyday. I will get up earlier. I will set aside time to meditate and stretch my body. I will eat a healthy breakfast and make sure my children have what they need to start their day. I will travel safe and start my work day invigorated and ready to be productive.
Back to my late story...
I have only recently started meditating in the mornings this week and my timing is still a bit off. I started at 5 am and finished at 6:15. Oops. I usually start getting ready for work by 5:45! Hair... makeup.. outfit.. breakfast... my my my..
I stood up, took 3 long slow deep breaths and told myself I will get myself ready as I normally do and clock in by 6:59 am. I didn't know how I was going to do that but I knew I was going to get it done.
Without rushing more than usual, I cleaned up, picked out my outfit, tied my hair up in a ponytail and spent the usual 10 minutes or so applying makeup. I then checked on my 7 yr old, which my most amazing boyfriend had already prepared for; snack, uniform and breakfast was ready for him. I grabbed our snack bag and prepared a healthy breakfast comprised of yogurt, fresh fruits, oatmeal and water with low fluoride. We step out in the fresh air and start our drive to work.
Halfway through our commute I realize we have only 10 minutes until we are officially tardy. With the usual red lights along the way, I started to think that we would not make it... then I STOPPED myself from thinking this negative thought. I literally yelled at myself in my head and said "Stop thinking negative thoughts Bianca!". I then closed my eyes (my boyfriend was driving obviously) and started imagining a completely empty road. I pictured Balfour Road, completely empty of cars except for us. I then picture green lights. I was seeing myself bathing in a ball of green energy light that I myself was emitting from within. I then saw myself on a never-ending see of green grass. After a few minutes of this visualization, I started thinking about the time clock. I saw myself swipe my card right at 6:59 am. I reverted back to thinking of bathing in green lights and green energy. With my eyes closed, I can feel that we had not stopped at all. We did not stop once the entire Balfour Rd. A slight pause at the end to make a right turn then drove right up to the gravel parking lot.
We briskly walked to the employee entrance and clocked in.
6:59 am.
Today is going to be a wonderful day!
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